Prayer
Like most people, I’m looking for answers. I have loads of questions that my mind could not even keep up. Not even my hands as I attempt to type my thoughts or write them down before they vanish forever.
I’ve been meaning to pray. I think the way you live your life should be your religion — not based on some ancient doctrine and teachings that may or may not have bearing to the recent world. I am not disrespecting any beliefs or mode of faith and especially the one I grew up in. I still consider myself a Catholic. But for years now, I feel like I’m missing something… somehow there’s been a void that couldn’t be filled anywhere else. And it’s hard to divulge this "opinion" in fear of offending or targeting any traditions out there.
With The Secret mania going on, as I am admittedly a somewhat follower (I classify myself as somewhat because I still have loads of trouble with the execution or application of these ancient theories), I feel lost in the flow. Maybe I do need a prayer to give me peace and contentment, so that even if I ask for any of my desires, I won’t feel let down or hopeless because of what was destined. I still believe a higher being is the Master and we are but souls out here to learn in the Earth school — if that makes sense to anybody.
I recently talked to a newfound friend, and she’s been such a devout of prayer. So I asked her advice on the best prayer for something (or someone) that I’ve wanted for a long time. And she told me that maybe the right prayer wasn’t the one I’ve been thinking or wanting all along, but rather I need to pray for more strength or will of heart to get to the next step.
And it was logical, it was concise and perhaps, could be the best prayer that maybe even God will consider. Don’t get me wrong. I feel so blessed in my life, and just recently, have relearned to appreciate what I have and could have. I feel fortunate for my struggles, those I’ve shared and purged and those personal that I deal with everyday, because for some reason, it keeps me fighting and getting up from the blow.
Maybe I’ll start the prayer today. For more strength and will of heart. Even if I may feel just a little humbled that God could have been helping those who are more in need than I am, maybe this time, he could reserve a little window of a minute for me as I ask this of Him.