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I woke up today to see several SMS messages from my mom and dad that Muffin had passed away the day after my birthday.

I broke down crying.  She has been suffering from what the doctor called Kennel cough from the last week.  My older sister didn’t want her stressed so my parents had to take her to the vet and set up dextrose at home so she could be comfortable.  My mom had said she was doing very well and had a hefty appetite on my birthday.  However, the vet wasn’t optimistic.  In human years, they calculated that Muffin was about 102 years old.  In dog years she was 2 months short of 10 years…

Frisky has just died from a rat bite 11 days prior.  Muffin died in her sleep in Nympha’s arms… I am over here in another country and I hadn’t even been able to say goodbye to my dogs…

I wanted to come home on March to see all 3… and now I’ll only see one… my beautiful Bessie who may be wondering right now why she’s all alone, and she doesn’t see her seniors…

My family decided to have both dogs cremated, but my mom says that they could still smell Muffin around, thinking that she couldn’t be at peace.  I know I have to let go, just as I’m starting to learn to accept Frisky’s fate.  I suppose the blow isn’t as much harsh because my family has decided to wait 2 days before telling me. 

But still, I had wanted to hug Muffin and Frisky for the last time because I hadn’t been able to the moment I left.  One of the reason why I wanted to chat via webcam was to see the dogs again but for some reason, since I got here, it never happened.  Now I only have a few videos and pictures to immortalize them.  Muffin’s been my baby for nearly 10 years and Frisky for 6.  They’ll always be in my heart.

I am grieving and my heart is broken.  I have lost two precious family members this month.  It’s just ironic that I have just celebrated a birthday when two passings have occured in between.  Life really does have its funny overtures sometimes and there’s nothing you can do but to take the ride.  I’ll always have my pets in my mind.  I’ll never ever forget them…

I love you, Muffin and Frisky.  I hope you’re happy in heaven, because now you’re truly home.  Thank you for being beautiful parts of my life.